i'm genuinely happy now :D

yup,i'm fine now..
those darkest day of my life have finally gone..
and here i am,starting my life in a new page :)

i know it's very common for us to be sad on one day and happy on the other day..
actually this is wat happiness is..
even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness,
and the word "happy" would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness..

so guys,cheer up!! :)

i notice i'd used :) a lot lately..
hahax..i luv this smiley!!

time's passed extremely fast,don't ya think so??
u woke up in an early monday morning,and with a blink of eyes,u realise that..
ehh...how come today's friday alrdy huh??
that explains why time flies!!

oww yeah,i killed a bee today!!
omg!! i can't believe it..
usually i'd screamed and run at the same time whenever i saw a bee!
bt today...................

it was during the math lesson,and this little busy body bee came and flew around my head..
of course,i couldn't scream in the middle of the lesson so i just used my book to chase it away..
but then...
the bee was the naughty one!!
it kept flying here and there..and worst still, tried to come near my face!!
hell no!!

i couldn't tahan alrdy so i called elissa (my friend who sit infront of me)
i shoved the bee away towards her place..hahax..
which is evil..
then she shoved it back towards me..and this action continued!!

soon after,i think the bee was having a jet lag aftr a continuous shoving by me n elissa..
so it made its way to a hole on the front part of my table..
it was quite a small hole..
the moment we saw it entered,elissa grabbed my book and close the hole immediately.. gotcha!!
i burst into laughter of satisfaction

i closed the hole tightly..
bt then i couldn't jus continue in that position..(my hand was streched!!)
AHA!! i think of a better idea,,
i called elissa and she nodded..

then the climax came!
we took a scotch tape and paste it on the hole!!
aha!! u silly bee,u're trapped now!
the bee was struggling inside,(pity it)
and a few minutes later,it was nt moving..
which is an indication to us,it's dead!!

we felt a bit guilty lar..
but blame the bee please!!!
it's the one who distracted us first..
we did something known as "self-protection" anw..

i doubt the bee is in the heaven now..
it's a bad and naughty bee!
naughty kids shouldn't have a place in heaven,am i right to say that??

so yeah..i prayed it won't be tortured terribly in the hell..
or worst! it turns to a ghost and hunt me n ellisa at night!!
oh no..holly daddy!!
please don't...*sob

true love or fake love??

i kept wondering to myself..

love..love..

wat is a true love??

on the other hand,what about fake love??

u may meet ur true love in ur life if u're lucky enough,

bt what if u run into a faker??

there're lots of fakers outside..trying hard to hide their identity..

how do we differenciate a fake love frm a true love??

signs of true love and fake love:

1. True love is always open and honest ..

Fake love hides their feelings and tries to manipulate feelings of others..

2. True love is self-sacrificing

Fake love is selfish and self centered!

3. True love gives from the heart..

Fake love gives in order to get something in return..

4. True love forgives..

Fake love seeks vengeance..

5. True love appreciates u for who u are..

Fake love tries to change u to their perfect ideal..

6. True love is romantic intimacy and love making..

Fake love is just sex..

7. True love tries to resolve conflict..

Fake love tries to prove it is right..

8. True love lets go of hurts..

Fake love harbors resentment..

9. True love gives u the freedom..

Fake love is controlling..

10. True love listens..

Fake love only talks..

finding genuine love is not an easy task..

of course,a tremendous effort have to be put in..

and sacrifice is purely needed..

if u're optimistic and vigilant..

true love is around the corner..

it won't go anywhere neither it will run away frm u..

PS: do not find love..let love finds u..

huge hit :(

my mind was full,my feeling was mixed..
i felt sorry for him..
yet, i really need to let him go..
this isn't goin to work..
no it won'T work!!

ok i should stop thinking abt it bfore those tears filled up my eyes..
time heals!! cheer up..(i keep saying this to myself)

anw,i'll go to yamaha music school tomorrow..
i need to fill up my days with lots of activities in order to get rid of this heart-sickening feeling..
i'll goin to take up saxophone classes..
hope it's interesting..

i'm waiting for someone now..
why isn't he/she turn up??
please,turn up asap..
i need u desperately..*sigh

speechless day :(

i'd prefer to keep my mouth zipped for now,
say nothing, an everlasting silence..

i'd done something i shouldn't do..
it's really an inexplicable situation..
i feel like crying now!

i try not to groan or moan that life was unfair to me,that i deserved better and that society had an obligation to do something for me..
but why someone has to push me deep down through the ground??
why that person should be him??
i'm solely responsible for my destiny,having no cause to complain or blame others now..

i need no one like him from now on..
i'm ready to be alone and lead my own challenging life..
and i really hope he won't appear in my heart again..
he'll be a good friend for me,but not someone who i'll love for the rest of my life..

i'd use my sense of gratitude and acceptance to let him go now..
he's left a deep scar in my heart,bt now i won't be bordered..
my dignity to be indepedent,my pride in keeping myself up above him and my ability to do what i know best will reward me with a greater outcome..

with that,i'd ended my relationship with him..
i won't shed any tears though,no matter how hard it is..
i'm sincerely let him go now..
bye2..

i'd accomplished my eng paper today..>.<
so happy..
and then the worse come...i couldn't pass with flying colours i think..

ok,the comprehension part..haiyaa..i hope i won't get a single digit for it..
for vocabulary..hikss..u noe wat.. i've been in my school for almost 4 years..and
out of 60 plus vocab qns..i got ony 5 to 6 qns correct..
terrible rite??



today..the vocab is..AUGUST..
august building and palace...bla bla..
then i was like..halooo..isn't that a month after july,before september??
did u misuse the word??



bt of course, i'm the one who has no clue..how on earth august can have 2 meanings..??
i didn't even noe such word does exist in dictionary..
bt definitely i shouldn't leave that particular qns blank..
so i just tried the trial n error method.. >.<
in the end,i wrote AUGUST = LITERALLY OLD..
hope i'm lucky enough to get it correct..



thing to take note


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I WANT TO GO TO MELBOURNE ASAP!!





i have to get my ass out frm sg asap!!
can't stand it here..so desperate and here is like no life at all!! erghhh..
i'll pursue my study at aust aft my o level..


ok..talk abt o lvl.. the principal told my class to aim for at least 10 pts..
i giggled when i heard that..i mean..>10 pts?? hell no..
i'd sum up my pts last exams..





english = b4
e math = A1
a math = A1
chemistry = b3
physics =A2
biology = A1
c.humans = A1
malay =A2



4 + 1 +1 + 1 + 1 + 2 = 10..





fiuhh..my teacher said i can do better than this..
yeahhh u're rite..i'm getting lazy now!!



i kept doing nonsensical thingy these days..
one of the silly thing i did..

i wrote a check for myself!!!

i realised i'd always be a big spender..so i think i should stop now!

i got a lot of things to buy..so i use this check as my motivation!!

i hope to save 2k by this nov..hope it'll work..^^

gonna buy lots of new stuff with the money..hohoho

i'd been crazy for sure today..

i mean,i'd really out of my mind,entire mind!!

let me tell u wat happened..

i was on my way back to my house frm a kopitiam..when i saw a beautifully decorated saloon..

then my this itchy mouth blurted out something really "bo kang co "

me : cin, ka poni yok..

before nor could say anything,i'd opened the door..

it's like don noe the ghost frm east or west came and entered my body,forcing me to go inside..

ok,u all will said."just enter larh..no harm at all what "

try to say that when u're the one who sat down there and got ur fringe cut until like 2 cm above ur eyebrow!!

i was startled..i kept telling the hairdresser.."no,don't cut too short" i couldn't even blink!!

end product..

in the actual scene,it's 2 cm abv my eyebrow!!

i keep pressing my fringe so that it can stick onto my forehead and appears longer..(i'm doin it now!)
i am so regret that i don noe wat to write now..u noe..regret is a very cruel feeling rite??
hikss.. sob *

bo pien liaw,must wait till it grow back..
how long will it take??1 week? 2 weeks?
i have to wash my hair twice a day!!
shouldn't cut my fringe in the first place..
uhhh.. -.- -.- -.-
emo-ing..
can't smile for the next couple of days..

bye sickness^^

i've been busy visiting the hospital lately becoz of my stupid stomach..

ok,the 2nd time i went to the hospital,the doctor said i've suffered frm stomach flu..
then i was like.. huh??does stomach catch flu???
the truth is some stupid virus has entered my stomach and there it goes.."stomach flu"
doesn't make sense at all rite??
go n ask the doctor for further enquiries.. :p

worst still,the prescriptions given by the doctor were different each time i visited her..
so,total i got like..7 type of medicines..5 pills and 2 powders..grosss >.<

1st pill to swallow : easy larh..no kick ^^

2nd pill to swallow : do i really need to eat this???

3rd pill to swallow : gross..it huge!! sumbody help!! hiksss..

4th pill to swallow : my stomach is getting worse..no no no.. >.<

5th pill to swallow : gulppp...toilet pleaseeee..

so i ended up vomit all those stupid pills...geez..

and for the powder one..
it tastes a bit sour yet u can feel a little sweetness in it..
it's like u eat orange and u add some sugar........ok NONSENSE!
the taste is like "adem sari " larh actually..
hhoho..
i was only told to drink 2 times a day,but the taste was so nice n sweet that i couldn't help myself to drink another packet..
hahaa..greedy huh??

so..thanks to all those medicines..i'm totally fine now..
i even ate a packet of cheesy potato chips just now!! yummy..^^